changes

We have done so much work around this place over the last couple months. Its hard to believe some of the things we accomplished! Many of the projects were fun, and some of them provided some reward and a sense of pride. However, its hard to enjoy it all as a whole when so much around here has too much negativity attached to it.
So rather than having all those projects done for US and our quality of living, those projects have turned into a resale enhancer - we are selling!

meticulousa enjoymenta

Simply, I love my job!

Many people would think my job is boring, mundane, non-challenging. Good thing I am not like most people. I rather enjoy my job. It suits my personality. My job allows and perhaps even requires me to be meticulously thorough. My OCD is thanking this job!

My daily assortment of repeated tasks are great. First, I get immediate results, and I enjoy the instant gratification that it provides (kind of like how I feel when I mow the lawn, you look back and see obvious results!). Second, like I said, I get paid to be meticulous. I have to take necessary time to look at each plant, to inspect it for bugs, slugs and other gross stuff. I have to take the time to trim them back, and sort them according to size (basically - is it shippable? will it be soon? is it in bad shape? does it look pretty much dead?... sometimes I have 3 or 4 different flats on the go for sorting!) I LOVE IT. I have an absurd love for sorting and organizing, and I am happy when I can achieve such.

Oh, and my favorite plant out of all the hundreds of varieties? That would be the Sedum Kamtschaticum var. Floriferum its just kinda cool, and a cool name taboot.

And speaking of names, I suppose my blog title might need some explanation... think about it!!! but if you still need clarification, feel free to add a comment.

the choice

Today I kinda feel like I am at a crossroads. I feel that I need to make a choice. An ultimatum is here, though not that anyone specifically or even indirectly gave me one, its just something that I feel.

I feel that I need to choose between two worlds. There is me, the me that is tangible, alive and well. There is me, the me that is virtual, alive and well. I'm talking about facebook, msn, and others, vs me in real life. Its not that I am a different me in terms of my values and *who* I am, its just that they are kind of two different aspects of me.

In real life I have interests that I don't really pursue too actively, and I don't really have anyone to pursue them with. Online is nice because I can find people who have similar interests and I don't feel like I have to subject the people in my real life to things they are not interested in.

However, it really does create a division, and its awkward at best. At what point do I agree that the virtual me has become an idol...?