Who new having an empty shed could be so exciting!
Its not the shed itself that is exciting, but the fact that it is empty, the fact that my father actually came last Saturday to empty it.
This after, the NOTE, the somewhat ultimatum I gave him on paper and left in his mailbox. But he showed up, and we helped him load his van, twice. It was kinda weird at first, but then it seemed to go pretty good, and ended well. That's good.
And now that the shed is empty, I could finally move my things in it! Big question remains - what to do with the 90 percent empty space because I own basically nothing!
yay storage!
new look
Its been well over 6 months since I started my blog, so I can safely change the look. Here's the thing though, once you start, you can't stop.
I found a really cool template that I liked, but the ONE element I really wanted to change was being pulled from somewhere else and I couldn't. So I am trying this one. I'm liking the colors, though its pretty plain... Not sure, but we'll see how I feel about it after I blog once or twice.
I'm foreseeing hours spent on my blog look and feel - good things playoffs start up again on Thurs for hockey, it will be awhile before I make changes again...
the habs lost.... man that sucks
My HABS, for those of you who don't know who the HABS are, shame on you, the Montreal Canadiens, NHL hockey team, are now done for the season. It saddens me. We entered the playoffs as the lead team in the Eastern conference, the most points, super hot. We had a tougher series against our rivals Boston than I thought we would, but pulled through and took that series in round 1 of the 2008 playoffs.
That is exactly what I expected tonight, for us to pull through. We were down 3-1 in the round 2 series against the Flyers (Philadelphia) - yah, I'm not giving you an easy link to their website, look them up... We were doing so well in the first period, and our all time favorite goalie, Price - who still ROCKS SO HARD by the way, made some super saves. But then things took a turn for the worse and we ended period 2 down one goal at 4-3. But a nice goal early in the third (thanks Andrei Kostitsyn!), and Price some WICKED saves, including stopping Briere on a breakaway, WAY TO GO Price, WE LOVE YOU.
But Philly scored, a tricky shot, and a tip in, Price didn't stand a chance. One minute to go, and I would have done it to, the coach pulled Price to the bench and six Habs on the ice. But the risk is there for a reason, the puck got away, and the Philly player made it first. In the empty net.
Worst part of it all - no, not having to take off my HABS jersey knowing it won't get worn again till next season... no, it was the WALK OF SHAME from my car to my house, after the ceremonial removal of the sweetest HABS flag from my car window.
Next year boys... your still my team!
seriously, i don't make this sh*t up!
Occasionally I actually give a serious response to select people when they ask how things are going for me, and how its going since my father moved out, etc...
The serious response includes the latest tales of things that my father has, or has not, done; and they stand there dumbfounded. No, its not what happened on yesterday's episode of an afternoon soap opera, its not some fictional novel I have read recently.
As preposterous as it may seem, this is the reality right now. Its no longer hard for me to imagine, or surprising to me. With him, the only thing to expect is the unexpected, as cliché as that may sound.
So, because its so hard to comprehend, seems my group of select people who occasionally get a response just got smaller, and the occasional more exaggerated.
cliff jumper
I'm on about that old adage - if all your friends jumped off a cliff, would you do it too? Probably not, because the outcome is not so good... But rather than cliff jumping, if all my "friends" got some good sweet deal because of something they did (or didn't) do, would I? Maybe... If many colleagues seem to get away with "whatever," can I?
I'm not sure that I will test this theory any time soon, because I have never done something simply because I'm supposed to, or simply because everyone else is. I have NEVER been a cliff jumper.
But could I? Could I waste a good chunk of my day, stretch the reality to somehow make my waste of time work related, and do very little tangible work? Could I be so un-stewardly with the time and money entrusted to me? Could I then turn around and imply things about other people's work ethic?
So I won't. Its got nothing to do with the (dis) ability necessary to achieve such. It would be A LOT easier than actually trying to get through my mountain of work. Its a CHOICE. I choose NOT to.
You can have your cliff all to yourselves.
shrink this!
I have blogged lots about how sharing your feelings does nothing but bite you in the ass... In the past week or so my real estate down there has remained in tact. But that has created another problem... Which is worse, bitten on the ass, or annoyed in the head!?!
I haven't really been talking to people, don't care much for people in general anyway, and now I get "oh, what's wrong" or "are you okay" or ...
somedays i just wanna be left alone! (ok, most days)
It seems too that when you share and then stop sharing that people make even MORE assumptions about you - see my post about "FAE"... So last week and even this week, the solution - as far as others in my "world" are concerned - is simple - ALL I NEED TO DO IS SEE A SHRINK!
Really???? Wow, its soooo easy to find a shrink. Its soooo easy to share with complete strangers and PAY for it. Its soooo easy to feel like you are crazy... (and apparently its easy to be sarcastic!). Its bad enough to refer to myself as "crazy" every now and again, but when you tell me to see a shrink because I suggest process changes at work, because our lack of organization and control is frustrating to me, it just pisses me off. And I see it as a cop out - all the organization's problems are because I need to see a shrink?!?
You know, the only thing SHRINKING is my capacity to care, my passion for change, and my desire to be here. SHRINK THIS, and hand me my pink slip.
Oh, and for all my friends, even though I am sure you have even better intentions than those in my "office" - please avoid this topic with me, and please DO NOT take the risk of referring me for counselling... I want to keep you as a friend, and right now its such a sore spot and I am so bitter!
maybe i should charge $300 an hour
No, this is not an x-rated blog... ha ha...
I've been blogging lately about the flaws with feeling sharing, but also the problems with not addressing them either... I've been trying to get a point across - that when you tell someone something about yourself, some trait or behavior that is less than ideal, they then assume you are that way ALL OF THE TIME.
Thanks (again) 'Rain for finding this - gotta be my favorite new term, and when I use it I sound smart! And its kinda neat to know that what I am talking about is REAL.
Its a psychology term: Fundamental Attribution Error. Look it up!
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