should i bother?

I got a response from the organization I used to work for. Apparently getting all perspectives of a situation is always a good idea. Hmmm. So, its up to me if I send something or not.
I kinda new that already. Was thinking there might be some hint at addressing the part where I said I've been ignored before, or the part where I said their systems seemed to have failed me. No hint at all. So that is why I wonder if I should bother.

Anyway, typing right now is not so easy, as my left index finger is injured! LMAO, an incident with the pruning shears, in my OWN gardens, not even at work, where I used them all day. My oh my...

4 comments:

  Anonymous

August 4, 2008 at 12:29 AM

I still think you need to do it. not to sound cheesy, but "if not for you, then for the other people who will be in this situation".

and maybe her response will be more detailed at a later time? You didn't ask her to respond to the past ignoring--you asked, "is it worth it for me to speak?" to which you received a "yes".

I say go for it.

  Jessica Côté

August 4, 2008 at 9:43 AM

Well, there was a little bit more to my email than that... the statements I made should have prompted a response whether I specifically asked for one or not.

But, my bigger reason for this is possibly selfishness. Several reasons:
1) There are simply much more important things going on in my life right now.
2) Do I really care about this organization?
3) Quite frankly, the "other people who will be in this situation" have their own brains, mouths and abilities. I tried to fight the culture and couldn't, why keep fighting? It's someone else's fight now, not just my replacement, but everybody still working there too!
4) I'm tired and need to move on. That organization, that denomination, is no longer a part of my life.

  Anonymous

August 7, 2008 at 8:01 PM

I see your point . . . but if you're going to decide to leave it at this, then you probably also have to let go of any bitterness you may still be holding on to over being wronged. because you're not giving them a chance now to "right" it. Which I know you gave them many, many chances before, but now with this . . .

I can't tell you what to do. and you're right, the others should take care of themselves, but who knows . . .

I'm curious as to what those more important things are--but we'll have to talk another time . . .

  Jessica Côté

August 16, 2008 at 12:31 PM

I personally think I need to let go of some of the bitterness anyway... Regardless of what anyone else does or doesn't do.

And don't pretend for even 1 second that I didn't give them a chance to right even THIS, that's bull shit, and I think you know that. I have given them more chances than I feel they were even entitled to!

I'm glad you still work there, but I get a sense that maybe you still feel a sense to defend their honor... however, you also hate it there too, so please don't lecture me! :)

And quite frankly, ANYTHING is more important to me than this organization of yours, but we can chat more about that.